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You'll be sorry you asked.

2007-12-03T03:56:04Z

Okay. I have received a nudge I haven't posted in 40 weeks or so. Lets see, how about a quick recap:

41 weeks ago: I was prod. mgr. in tech for a show called "Tall Grass" at Theater Row. The show was okay, at best: a vanity project for a wall streeter turned playwright whose style was kind of like SNL skit meets masterpeice theater. The staffing was kind of disastrous- snippy stage managers, unrealistic designers; bad attitude city- made better by the fact that our whole family was sick as dogs.

40 weeks ago: apparently, according to my calendar still in tech for Tall Grass- is this really possible? I guess so- no changes. see above. I do remember they had nice wifi available up in the upper lobby- so why wasn't I posting?

39 weeks ago: Pdt. Mgt Load in and Tech for another show: Fugue- total oppposite of TG. Well written show, established playwright. Great designers. easy staff. Easy load-in. dreams of Broadway before our eyes- unfortunately mediocre reviews.

38 Weeks ago: My in-laws anniversary, my mom and grandmother's bdays. I went to lunch with my mom for caviar as we have done for the past 10 years or so. It was just us this year. Nice little place on the second floor somewhere in the 50's on Madison. She always takes home a spoon as a keepsake, oh and she always pays. I provide the birthday wishes. We spent the weekend with friends in Vermont. Snow. Snow. Snow. We cross country skied- much to Lev's chagrin, we tried to drag him along in a sled thing. he pouted for about 3 hours straight. the next day we discovered that even though he was only 22 months old he could walk in snow shoes. He uttered what I will at least always recall as his first sentence- he said with a combination of spite and pride, "MAMA! LEV -SKI!"

37 weeks ago: I went to see the amazing Coast of utopia trilogy with my mom. 9 hours of Tom Stoppard on Russian intellectuals. Just my cup of tea. At the end you got a pin. I ran the Utopia marathon. It was really great theater for the most part. Some amazing visual images , engaging for the whole time. But in the end the ideas, which can be so annoying to some theater goers, as often with Stoppard, seemed to be a bit fleeting. I don't really have a solid sense of THE BIG IDEA 9 months later.

36 weeks ago: Normal week. D had school and variety of therapeutic interventions. L. caused trouble. I had an undoubtedly too long staff meeting for Tribeca project.

35 weeks ago: Seder. I hosted for the first time as a real grown-up- Mexican restaurant seder doesn't count. We got past the school's fifth disease scare- so our 2 pregnant guests could come. The lamb was well received. D did the four questions.

34 weeks ago: D started his soccer class with his preschool class. First week- not a rousing success. The beloved Wesley- the child he follows around to take all social cues from was not interested in playing, hence neither was Dashiell.

33 weeks ago: J and I went to the first open house regarding Kindergarten school applications for this year. Only 44 weeks or so until we find out where he's accepted. J promptly packs up and leaves for 6 weeks in Asia on Spongebob Sq. Pants Tour.

32 weeks ago: Nephew born in Pittsburgh: Harrison Augustus Kelson. healthy and happy mom and dad. In weeks to come he will be known for sporting an incredibly jaunty bouffant hairstyle. 2nd weeks of soccer- we ditch Wes and play with great glee. Attended an interesting panel at the preschool about talking to young children about death and dying. Kids get familiar with using "skype" to talk to daddy every morning. we explore concepts of sun and earth placement using a globe and flashlight to explain where Daddy is and why its always night there when its morning here.

31 weeks ago: Tribeca film and family festival. IT happens. Its big. I run around like a maniac but don't get too stressed by it anymore. Al my super hip children's musical act selections are big hit with all 300,000 people who attend on a glorious sunny day.

30 weeks ago: Went to a Yankees game with my Dad. It was fun. We went to a night game. I used to go to games with him all the time in Pgh. Haven't been much lately. I think I might prefer to see the Mets, but he prefers to see the yankees and honestly I just like sitting outside at night enjoying the atmosphere.

29 weeks ago: 30yo sister in law in Illinois suffers a ruptured brain anueryism. She survives and is air lifted to Madison wisconsin. Mayhem ensues in jay's family,and her family -their 3 kids are getting lost in the shuffle. Big concerns on everyone's part. Lev celebrates 2nd birthday. A lot going on, it was a little understated. Eh, he'll never remember.

28 weeks ago: I travel to Chicago on business, a weird drug company industrial thing and decide to take boys and nanny along so we can go in and help stabilize things for family in Illinois. We have 3 days in Chicago and then head off to be a 5 kid family for a week. We cook a lot of freezer meals, learn some new songs to sing in the car , discover that tupperware and underwear are a hilarious rhyme, Lev announces a bit too loudly and too often that he doesn' t like baby Ethan and for entirely different reasons we manage to piss off sister-in-law's crazy sisters - aggravating a family feud which ends in them calling father in law an old drunk. I send a poison pen email, which I should know better than to actually send, but do anyway. Children's welfare hangs in the balance in my opinion. Sister in law continues to recuperate, unfortunately not kept blithely unaware of fighting- which actually continues to this day.

27 weeks ago: Jay still away. Boys are used to it. I go to see a Neil Labute play with my friend Kelly- thankfully not directed by him. It was okay. We had a nice meal afterwards.

26 weeks ago: Jay returns from Malaysia and Singapore. Readjustment home just as hard as adjustment away. He is meanwhile preparing to leave again in a week and go be supportive of his brother in Illinois- see week 27.

25 weeks ago: Apparently I got lucky. We know so, because sperm fertilized egg and Hurricaine Keljan prepares to reach category 5 early next year.

24 weeks ago: Jay in Rockford all week painting brother and sister-in law's house. His family has this strange ritual of doing home improvements for people when catastrophe strikes. Sister in law is home form the hospital and doing well all things considered. I make clear my wishes to Jay if anything happens to me and I'm in the hospital, no members of his family are to come in and renovate our home in any way.

23 weeks ago: Surprisingly Jay is required to return to Asia on about 1 day's notice.

22 weeks ago: The boys and I celebrate the 4th as we have for the past few years on Robert's roof in Brooklyn heights. We are benevolently tolerated breeders at a party full of gay men and young theater types. we bring along a pregnant Alex and Howard for support. I do this weird event at Radio City- a nationwide Highschool and younger Dance competition thing. No I don't dance. I just Stage Manage.

21 weeks ago: I think Jay returns this week- its not in the calendar, but he did make it back sometime...

20 weeks ago: We went cabin camping in a trailer park near the Jersey shore. Lots of fun. we roasted marsh mellows, discover seagulls love goldfish crackers and go to the beach . On the way home we stopped by Philly to meet new niece, Georgia. Lev continues to show great love of babies- his only acknowledgement of her was, "Mama, put that baby down." Fun times ahead.

19 weeks ago: Travel with Alex overnight to Hershey Park to see Police reunion tour. It was Lame- though I thought it a bold ironic move on their part to put up slides of dinosaurs behind themselves while playing "walking in your footsteps." Oh well. We also ate bad diner food, but had a nice time 2 gals away for a night. no partying hardy though. We were both pg.

18 weeks ago: Some other family of Jay's comes to visit us- well they visit NYC, but we see a lot of them, Its fun. The boys love older girl cousins. It turns out Dashiell still hates art museums. I don't get it. He has no cultural expectation not to like them. I think he gets a little bit visually over-stimulated ad needs to check-out.

17 weeks ago: Jay paints our house, luckily no one is sick or anything- the boys and I have just decamped for 3 days at a friend's beach house in the hamptons. lah di dah. we are very classy. this is our plan from now on- it seems everyone who does have a beach house feels quite isolated once they're there and is just begging for guests; we can't help but oblige.

16 weeks ago: First sonogram and midwife's appt. Heartbeat is seen. All appears to be on track.

15 weeks ago: My whole family meets up for a week in St. Michael's Maryland. this is Dashiell's vacation. He informs Mindy when she misses a swimming app't with him, that he's only here for one week and if at all possible he hopes they can swim agian like last year. She figures out how to make it work with her own kids on a later date. Lev notices that Mindy has a baby- though he's seen her before- it appears to him to be the first time as he says with some surprise, "Aunt Mindy, you have a baby?!" We catch a lot of tasty blue crabs and cook them up and eat them. We go fishing and Dashiell gets the dreaded, "boat sickness"- we hve to return to shore for his equally boat sick Dad to pick him up. Otherwise a fun and relaxing week. Boys discover the joys of water balloons.

14 weeks ago: D begins his nueropsych evaluation needed to apply for any special needs schools/ use in our case against the board of ed regarding finding a proper placement for him. All still unclear what kind of school environment he needs. he's on the cusp small mainstream/sn. Its frustrating because he has no easily classified learning disability- he's able to decode and basically read and is a math whiz-perhaps too much so, but he still doesn't cope very well unaided in a classroom. Still language issues, but much more subtle than before.

13 weeks ago: Jay paints the bathroom as we escape to another lonely friends hospitality on Fire Island this time. I find Fire Island to be very amusing- kind of like getting away from it all for Nyers who don't really want to get away from NY. There are tons of houses close together. We run into about 7 other people we know. The big thing though i there are no cars allowed anywhere and kids run free in packs. Even the 4yo set has some freedom to walk down the road 2 houses to a friend's house alone- not exactly the typical NYC kid experience.

12 weeks ago: Back in the grind- sort of- no school yet for 2 more weeks. Weather is sucky. I work Ave Q alot. Boys start to go stir crazy.

11 weeks ago: More avenue Q, more boys with nothing to do, more rain rain rain. more fetal testing. All fine. Starting to tell more people about the baby, but not that into talking about it for some reason. I don't want the boys to know yet. thats one reason anyway. Too much lead time for them = unnecessary stress.

10 weeks ago: School starts finally. Lev goes 3 days. Adjusts like a champ. D is happy as a clam to be back- I notice the added stimulation takes his mind off of obsessive number topics like how you might count by 638s.

9 weeks ago: We start touring and being interviewed in earnest at schools. All the applications etc. are like a part-time job. I'm so over it already and its barely begun. we have to put on a brave face and go forward. Local zoned public not an option. I don't want to home school. Dashiell has a fun birthday party- 6 boys build robots. Its geek central. he loves it.

8 weeks ago: jay was supposed to change the water filter under the sink. Did he do it? I'll never know. Well I could figure it out. I also travel for another wierd medical industrial thing to Annaheim, CA. I spend almost as much time on planes as at the gig itself. Its fine. I come home.

7 weeks ago: We all get flu shots. Dashiell and I go to see a show at the New Vic. "Comet in Moominland" Its pretty fun- apparently a beloved book series from the 40's I've never heard of it but older British friend knows it well. Dash liked it, but was not happy with the ending- Comet just misses the earth and they didn't provide enough explanation for him as to WHY it didn't hit the earth. Luck wasn't cutting it for him as an answer. In the end he would only be satisfied by inventing answer for himself- obviously a spaceship came along and pulled the comet out of the way.

6 weeks ago: More school tours, interviews and visits.

5 weeks ago: We head to Vermont to meet our friends for our annual camping trip. Unfortunately the forecast is very bleak- freezing rain 100% certain for 2 days and I screwed up the reservation at the cabin- now we're going to be in a lean-to- so our friend chris improvises and we decide instead to pitch our tent in the deep dark woods across the field from his house. We sleep the first night in the rain- very peacefully then retreat to their cosy house for the day, go to a pumpkin patch and pick pumpkins, carve jack-o-lanterns and end up sleeping indoors the second night. We do roast marshmallows in a little fire pit Chris set up in the back yard. Sunday the weather clears and we go for a nice brisk hike.

4 weeks ago: We find out: ITS A GIRL! Take that other team. I will not spend the next 18 years drowning in too much testosterone- well okay i will, but I won't do it alone, I'll have a little estrogen on my side. Still haven't told the boys.

3 weeks ago: School interviews for us and D. I work an event for the Sundance channel. Jay and I prepare to travel together sans children to LA for 4 days for a wedding. LA trip is very relaxing and fun. We rent a car, eat when we want what we want. Try to sleep in despite the jet lag. Wedding is nice. We go to museums ;see a movie generally remember our pre-children existence in the city where we met.

2 weeks ago: Travel to Rockford for Thanksgiving. Kids have fun fun fun with cousins. No one sleeps right. Turkey day is quite relaxed. Jay helps build his parent's deck railing- which for some reason annoys his father. Because Jay's vowed to not return at x-mas again we do a weird rushed xmas the day after Thanksgiving thing which leaves no one but the, overloaded with gifts, children entirely happy.

Last week: Back to school and schedule. Lev got sick on Saturday. Dashiell's sense of the proper course of things was rewarded by and early december snowfall- jsut as it should be in his opinion. Somehow I messed up the weeks ending up with not enough weeks to get to the present- but I 'm sure nothing happened Nov. 12-17th and I think you get the drift anyway.
So thats me. Signing off- see you in 40 more weeks.

Synchronicity

2006-10-24T20:25:35Z

So I think its weird. I'm looking into all these schools and every time I'm reading up in the brochures and writing up the applications I talk to someone and they're connected to the school- like their kid goes there or they're on the board of trustees of the school, etc. I think its odd- there are a lot of schools out there and I don't know that many people. what's going on? The latest one, I'm leafing through the brochure and on the back page it says photos by: insert the name of our contact on the most recent show.

Schools

2006-10-11T16:21:43Z

Ugh I am overwhelmed by the process of sorting through the schools process. Fall birthdays suck. Why didn't I plan my pregnancy better around the NY school system?
We are caught between 2 years- for public D must go to K next year and because he cannot attend our local, "no child left behind, except here" school I can't opt to hold him back,so I have to apply to all the specialty and magnet schools this year, but he's not eligible for any private schools until the following year- not to mention the complications added because of his sensory and other issues-
He's getting SEIT services- a special education itinerant teacher who basically helps him out in school to make meaningful connections with other kids and to not freak out/ sink into the floor and try to disappear himself all day long.
The SEIT is saying he may need to go to a special ed school- because a large group just overwhelms him. No one questions that he's bright and I'd kind of rather he was in an inclusion setting because he doesn't need to be with kids with behavioral and other issues, but the private school scene is so competative, even in frigging special ed he may have a hard time getting in anywhere at all.
Maybe I need to just worry about next year only and then re-assess, but the thought of going through it all again nauseates me as well...

Rachel C.

2006-10-06T23:40:46Z

We're working on the off-bway production of My Name is Rachel Corrie. After spending weeks worrying about finding the right kind of concrete rubble, I finally got to see it the other night- it's a docudrama patched together from her journal entries, emails etc. I was nervous about what we might be a part of- as far as some stupid british anti-semitic nonsense (the show was originally created at the Royal Court in London)- but in the end I just felt sorry for her. She was this naive kid, who didn't have a clue what she was dealing with. She was upset by injustice in the world, but her support of the Palestinian cause seems a bit haphazard. In one of her last journal entries, she's contemplating going to Sweden for as month, or maybe heading off to South America. Had she not been killed, this might have been an interesting and eye opening interlude for her- where she discovered that the media coverage of an issue and the reality of it are different.

Why can't i post pictures?

2006-09-23T00:55:02Z

What's the matter with this xjournal thing , or is it just me?!

Charms

2006-09-23T00:49:17Z

I just was at the deli picking up some stuff for Jay and saw some charms
candy.

I can't resist them. They remind me of my grandmother. They're really no different than lifesavers except square and individually wrapped in extra crinkly cellophane.

Its just one of those sense memory things. She always had them in her purse, right next to a bag of subway tokens- which she only used for riding the bus.

I find it hard to believe that she's been dead for 7 years. Dashiell is named for her and we had a funny moment while on vacation in Maryland- where she is from BTW. Dorothy used to love eating Maryland Blue steamer crabs. Dashiell is very picky. His taste buds are opening up more lately, but still- he won't eat ice cream, chicken fingers, etc.-He's very easily grossed out by new or unfamiliar textures but we go crabbing and catch a bushel full of blue crabs and the first thing he says is " Lets boil them up and eat them" and then He does eat them. Repeatedly. I think he was channelling.

My dog jumped over the moon

2006-09-21T03:53:36Z

My dog is so big that my 1 year old thinks he's a cow. We were reading Goodnight moon and he kept pointing to the cow jumping over the moon and saying "Sam!" "Sam!"

egopedia

2006-03-29T02:20:45Z

I was reading some back LJ stuff and found http://librarygrrl.livejournal.com/'s entry about a wikipedia entry- and I started thinking there must be a term for this masturbatory wikipedia posting about oneself- egopediaing, wikimania? Is the wikioedia filled with personal fluff pieces. I am very tempted to go in and edit a few.

Grey Hair

2006-02-27T16:07:40Z

I have been noticing a huge percentage of my friends are going gray. Is this normal for the 30's? Some of them are, granted, a bit older, but still..will I be going gray in 5 years time? It has been striking. I don't feel that old, hmmm...

Desperately seeking Sarah, well not desperately..

2006-01-13T16:15:36Z

Now I have spotted 3 of the 4 sex in the city women: Kim Cattral eating a brooklyn diner, Cynthia Nixon walking with her kid in a stroller on the upper west side and the one with the long brown hair looking very glamorous on 6th ave in Chelsea. I just need to bag Sarah Jessica to get them all and its funny she's the one I have the most connections to. I worked with her step-brother on a show, I played softball with Matthew Broderick in the park once,and her kid is exactly the same age as Dashiell- she was my Celebrity pregnancy buddy ( I think our due dates were very close.)

Lets see, this week I too joined the gastrointestinal distress crowd this week. I think it may have been food poisoning as well, but I know there is a Stomach flu going around. I ate dinner at 6pm, went to work on Q and I was up about 15 feet in the air on the "jump" learning to call the show when I suddenly realized I would have to climb down a vertical ladder bolted to the wall with no safety cage while feeling dizzy and like I was going to retch. I made it to the nice communal bathroom- made me feel like I was back in college, people laughing and having fun right next door while you're puking you guts out. I came home with fever and chills and went to bed - felt awful for a day and now I'm fine. Hmm.

jet lag

2006-01-04T18:02:45Z

So we're back from the West. I definitely got a little rejuvenating rush from being out in Arizona- FLW I'm sorry we didn't meet up. I wish the west coast was closer. every time I go it makes me feel good, to be there. It just agrees with me, but its too far to go regularly. The boys made the trip really well. We dealt a little with jet-lag there, but coming home has been murderous. Dashiell keeps waking up for hours at a time in the middle of the night, unable to sleep. WHY did he get this trait from me? He is the spitting image of his father. He is a lefty like his father. He's apparently obtuse and troublesome to educational professionals, like his father. Why is it that can't he sleep like his father too?
For railroad boy we found a very cool playground park in Scottsdale with ride on steamers- at least his obsession is a common one. We also made it out to Sedona where Jay and I got to hike with the baby while D went with my parents and brother on a jeep tour. And best of all I got to go horseback riding twice. We went on vacation in Arizona when I was 17 and my brother and I went out riding every morning for a week. I love horseback riding, but its an entirely unsustainable hobby for a committed city girl.

Woody Allen

2005-12-14T19:34:27Z

Here we go into the syndromization of childhood. The nursery school is "puzzled" by some of Dash's behavior-They suggest evaluation. They are VERY nice about it, but I suspect through buzz-words and jargin and a moderate knowledge gleaned from the internet and a very close knowledge of the fact that my boy is a bit odd that they are leading toward variuos syndromes- my guess they think he has Aspergers the key is the overwhelmingly detailed train obsession combined with a certain unstoppable verbosity and what they see as pragmatics problems in peer to peer relationships and a few sensory issues.
BUT i see it like this- these syndromes Sensory Integration Disorder, Aspergers etc, reading about them as a layperson- they are like horoscopes , you say OH yes THAT is me, but if you read the description of a normally developing 3 year old that also is him.

I also ask is this not just social immaturity? AND- isn't he going to nursery school in order to learn just that , how to socialize with his peer group and also all of these stupid things if they do think he has one, most weren't even "recognized" until recently- so he used to be what we might call a "nerd" but now that too has its syndrome- I think this happens everywhere, but the Upper East and West sides of Manhattan must be the epicenter- creating neurotic little over analyzed Woody Allens of all the kids.

However, I do admit I have seen him absolutely break down in a large group situation to where he was acting like the retarded kid in the corner, fingers in his ears, lying on the ground making his free hand into a train (I knew but to the outside eye it appeared to be a random repetitive motion), unable to get in line with the other kids at soccer class, like physically made uncomfortable from it. Basically acting like a wacko and add to that his enjoyment in repeating strange phrases he has heard from adult conversation/the internet( he does a great Strong Bad impression)-if he is doing all that at school I can see why they are worried...

So, we've agreed to have him evaluated, why not? He won't know the difference and it may help us a lot in figuring out the more important issues of his long-term schooling needs.

The Scent of Maple Syrup

2005-10-28T20:16:10Z

Okay, I thought I was just being sensitive. I even started digging through the fridge to see if my extra strong vermont stuff had spilled or something- then I got this link in the latest Snowshow performance report- apparently, the smell of maple syrupwas driving other people nuts yesterday too.
WEIRD!

One farmer Market

2005-10-26T15:55:55Z

Oh, One farmer market, why do you always mock me as I pass you, arms laden with expensive, non-local produce from the Whole Foods. One lonely farmer,why can't I remember that you will be there on Wednesdays? One farmer market? Where are all the other farmers?

Disobedience

2005-10-09T20:42:46Z

Riding on the bus today. I got into my head the AA Milne poem Disobedience.<http://oldpoetry.com/poetry/9454>. I love that poem. My mom used to recite it for us. Now I'm passing it on. A certain 3 year old I know glommed right onto it- I believe highlights for him included the part about James James being 3 and then of course the part where he is ordering his mother around-

A sea of sniffles

2005-10-07T15:17:25Z

It has begun. Dash got the sniffles- he gave them to Lev- I watched the transfer as: immediately after the grossest snottiest kid sneeze, I wiped his nose; he turned around and for some unknown reason and put his entire mouth over Lev's nose and mouth
(perhaps he felt he needed CPR.) Now Lev gave it to me and I gave it to Jay- all we need now is for Jay to give it back to Dash and the cycle will be complete. Repeat until Spring.

nursery school

2005-09-27T03:29:28Z

Little D is starting nursery school. 3 days a week at a local synagogue, but it is nothing like old Temple Emanuel (I think of you often these days Mr. Blue rain slicker.) Being on Manhattan's west side means there are Parent's Associations and fund-raisers and crazy notions about separation which hold me hostage in the coffee room of the school for hours at a time.
My sonny boy asks me "Are YOU going to the coffee room? Would I come with you?"
and I have to say "yes I am, but no you have to stay with the children and the teachers, while I go wih the Mommies, but I'll be back for the goodbye song"
and then I go to the coffee room and chit chat with all the investment banker's wives and lawyers and part-time lawyers and part-time Mommies in the coffee room.

The really strange thing is that its not as bad as it sounds. The mommies are nice and I feel comfortable enough there and oddly happy to know my mixed breed jew-lock will have some kind of Jewish identity. Because not practising doesn't mean I don't identify as Jewish...

Rent

2004-03-25T02:28:04Z

I am supposed to be learning how to call the show Rent. In fact, I have to call the show when I am in as a vacation sub starting next week, but I am thwarted at my every turn- by what I consider to be a completely obsolete piece of technology- the cassette tape. I have had said cassette in my possession since August. I have yet to listen to it. FIrst, I forgot all about it. Then when I finally decided to listen to it (in January,) the tape player on my stereo was busted. L'il D had recently broken the cassette player of my boom box and I no longer had a tape walkman. Ok- so I suck it up and buy the cheapest walkman I can find. I get it home and it doesn't have a rewind button. I need a rewind button to listen to parts of the tape over and over as i am learning intricate sequences of lighting cues. So I buy a different, not quite as cheap, but still pretty cheap walkman and yesterday I even rewound the tape in it, but today I actually tried to play it and the stupid machine doesn't work! I'm starting to think it's not meant to be.

Running in the park with Sam

2004-03-22T02:34:40Z

We had a day of driving in circles. We went out to Jersey City to see A&H for "Sunday Dinner." We took advantage of having the car to go to Wallmart- except we got lost and drove around jersey for about 2 and a half hours before finally doing some shopping and arriving about and hour and a half late at A&H"s. Dash spent dinner climbing up and down their staircase and chasing their cat, like a good energetic toddler. I spent dinner chasing Dash, like a good mother. Sam spent the day looking uncomfortable- like a dog away from home. We finally came back to the city and Sam and I took the car back to my parents' garage and ran home into the wind. It was cold but felt good and exhilarating. I need to exercise more. but what was really nice was just being out alone in the city at night, trusty dog by my side.

Beginning to Blog again

2004-03-18T02:24:51Z

I have decided to give this live journal thing a go again. I am taking a moment because Jay has started putting the D-man to sleep at night, which is a great relief to me. It has been an enduring torture for the past year or so. the little guy hates to go to sleep and the process of soothing him down exhausts me. But i am off the hook for a while and have to be quiet in the apartment so what better time to get back in touch with my journalling self and some old friends to boot.

Back in Town

2001-11-11T23:08:19Z

Yup. I'm back in town. I've been around the world and finally came back. Well it wasn't that long a trip. Nothing seems any different at home- despite the fact that everything should. Something about the bigness of NY makes me want to stay inside my very small apartment, much more than I would in a very small town. Even when I go out, I only like to deal with tiny parts of the city at a time. My husband thinks I just have to pick my wave and ride it. I don't know. I don't want to pick a wave.
Coming back is a strange sensation. I am much better at leaving than coming back. leaving, now that I can do. Pittsburgh, Bye bye not so much as a wink and a nod. Philly. Oh I come back for th cheesesteaks, but not much else. Moscow- that was a tough one- I did visit again on this most recent trip. yeah, I could live there again. In Moscow life is exciting. London: even going into Heathrow gives me the willies. I just do not like it there. Well actually I did go back once and it wasn't so bad after I was actually there. LA: I'm in no rush to see the left coast again. But here I am back in NYC after a four month hiatus.
I need a job.
I think I may need a new occupationas well. I am sick of the world of professional theater.
I went in for an interview last week and they don't even have the guts to call me to tell me I didn't get the job. I put together my resume and a cover letter. I came to them in a timely fashion;I was well groomed and I met with the director for a 1/2 an hour. They owe me the courtesy of a response. But know I'm supposed to glean the fact that I didn't get the job from the lenghtening silence between meeting with them and the impending start date. GROW UP.

Cat Language

2001-04-23T20:49:00Z

My cat decided to talk to me today. I decdied to change his brand of cat litter last friday. I got all eco-friendly and bought some pine chip litter. Today, my cat peed on my bed, and my favorite sweatpants, and on the comforter. I had an old boyfriend who told me that you could tell what was important to me by how close I kept it to the bed. I created radiating circles of diminishing improt. Do you think the cat has figured this system out?

banana in the tailpipe

2001-04-20T22:34:48Z

So I don't know very much about the weight watchers points system, but I've heard that some fruits and vegetables have points of zero- maybe this is a lie, but this is what I heard. So in effect, if all you eat is bananas all day long every day- hundreds of bananas - you'll lose weight. I'd bet this is true. I bet you can't eat enough bananas only to gain weight, but I think this is because you need a rounded diet. IF you're only eating bananas, you're body' digging around for nutrients you got the last time you ate some cheese etc. I think this is one reason vegetarians are so skinny- their bodies are constantly going back further and further trying to find the ast little bit of meat on their bones until they waste away. But back to the original question- can you eat too many bananas- this reminds me of my car's odometer thingy. It has a fancy little DTE light- distance til empty and you push a button and it tells you exactly how many miles until you run out of gas- the only catch is that if you speed up- the number goes up instead of down- yes I understand the science of it- better gas mileage the fatser yo're going blah blah blah, but if it's telling you all you have is 2 miles til empty you can speed up infitinely and never run out of gas- at least it looks that way when watching it while driving. I know, I know in reality this ratio tops out at about 55mph after that it should start to go down again- but it doesn't. So explain that...

Countdown

2001-04-18T23:55:23Z

8 weeks until the wedding. Dance lessons progress. We're both enjoying them. I'm a little surprised. The other night we were out at the Westside tavern, across the street- a place that Jay haunts as a pool shark. Suddenly he grabbed me and we were dancing. This never happens. He hates dancing. Well no more. All he needed was the steps. You can fox trot to anything that's in 4/4 time. That's a big revelation.

New journal

2001-04-16T20:13:13Z

I heard about the whole live journal thing from a friend I hadn't seen in 5 years. I saw her over the weekend and she told me about journals of other people from high school who I haven't seen for many years. So I just spied on their journals. It was kind of cool. So I'm creating this journal and all you people who went to high school with me who are always trying to look me up and all that ( except for when you're forgetting to invite me to my ten year reunion. You know, my parents haven't moved since 1994 man and they live right near the high school and their number and address are listed. You could have found me you high school reunion people. I mean I'm listed at classmates.com. ) anyway, now you all can spy on me.